"Just" A Mother

When I was young, I wanted to be a pediatric oncologist. I was obsessed with reading fictional books about childhood cancer like “Defiance,” and my favorite movie was “Letters to God.” After a couple years, I realized that was probably one of the most depressing jobs on earth- one that would require more schooling than I was interested in.

"You are not too young, too smart, too talented, as they like to argue; you do not have to “experience life,” wait till you're 30, or want a “real” job. Wanting motherhood or wife-hood does not make you “discontent” in your singleness. The world, even the church, likes to pressure us women, and make us feel like motherhood is not good or noble or high enough of a calling."

Then in high school, I decided I wanted to be a a certified midwife. My favorite show was Call the Midwife. I was obsessed with learning about pregnancy and natural childbirth. But for whatever reason, I decided that would be a waste of my talents (although I still LOVE pregnancy and childbirth and would consider midwifery or becoming a doula in the future).

At the end of high school, I auditioned for three theater schools; two in England, one in New York. I was accepted to a summer program in London, and to the American Musical and Dramatic Academy in NYC.

I ended up staying home and attending our local community college for music production and recording. After two years, and being a year behind, I decided that I was less than interested in recording and producing music and that a life of performing and entertaining was not for me. So I dropped out, and although I joke about it, I did get my M.R.S “degree”- the only degree I’ve truly ever wanted.

You see, throughout all of those career desires, the one thing that never changed was my desire to be a mother. I had a dream of having lots of children, and staying home to take care of them and teach them; maybe have a small side hustle from home to help my husband; live in a home not too far from civilization, but far enough away to have a homestead. My dream didn't leave much room for a career- and you know what I've realized? It is okay if I don't vigorously pursue a career! I DON'T want a career! My passion lies elsewhere! So, you might not ever see me on Broadway, opening up for Beyonce, hustling in the corporate world, or with a PhD. If all I ever am is “just a mother,” I will be living my dream job.

You are not "too young", "too smart", "too talented", as they like to argue; you do not have to “experience life,” wait till you're 30, or want a “real” job. Wanting motherhood or wife-hood does not make you “discontent” in your singleness. The world, even the church, likes to pressure us women, and make us feel like motherhood is not good or noble or high enough of a calling.

But truly, truly, it is one of the highest callings.

With love,

Solie Osorio